trust, faith and lots of lots of pixie dusts

Just a quick post ; 


Yesterday, we had additional maths.
and for some reason, my work wasn't complete,
I did a few,
but I didn't understand some, and I left it there, empty.

I know my teacher well,
she always checks our work after a long break,
she somehow knows some people will not finish their work,
true enough, some boys didn't complete their work,
and she was furious,
like, real mad,
and she started checking all our books,


I was so worried,
she is my favorite teacher, and she dotes on me as well,
and I know it'll be awkward if she ever sees me not finishing my work.
BUT I HAD NO CHOICE,
addmaths is hard,
I missed a few classes, and boom, I'm having a hard time coping with it now,

So yeah, I prayed.
and guess who answered my prayer? (;
When it was my turn, she didn't even flip through the pages,
she saw my work was complete on the first and second page,
and she gave me back my book.

Oh my, you don't know how relieved I felt.

I'm not trying to tell you, don't finish up your work and expect God to do a miracle,
I'm just saying, when you do your part, God will do His part.


Hope you'll be blessed (:

"I believe in Christianity as I believe the sun has risen; not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else." - C.S Lewis. 

xxx

I've been dreaming way too much, can we turn this to reality

I KNOW.
I haven't been updating.
I have no time, oh my gosh.

Yeah, the reason why I can update now, 

is because I skipped school, for some reason.

I miss the lovelies so much,
no doubt, last weekend was so awesome,
but I miss seeing them every day.
I miss bickering with Jeva,
I miss talking to Puteri,
I miss teasing Yaseen,
I miss arguing with Zali.

Anyway, life goes on.
I'll be seeing them at Aungerah Cemerlang though,
so you know, I'm kindda excited 

and I cannot wait for it. 

this hurts so much. 

playing cards and truth or dare, late night conversations with you

my heart literary sank when I found out Puteri and Jeva were leaving one day after they told me they got into SSI.
It was way too soon, I didn't expect them to leave this early, or before Zali leaves.
I didn't have time to prepare myself.
And I've cried for weeks because I couldn't imagine going to school without em'.
And here am I, today, 2 days since they left,
And I'm barely surviving school.
Today was the last day for Zali.

I cried briefly in the morning, and prayed,
hoping today would be a better day.
And yes it was way better.

Puteri Syahirah Balqis,
Puteri, thanks for being there always,
you don't know how grateful am I to you.
the times we went crazy over Vanessa Hudgens,
to discussing how awesome Glee's songs were.
From Facebook crazies, to Twitter obsessed.
I love you from the bottom of my heart,
it's been tough for me, and I know it's hard for you too,
but stay strong love!
All the best in everything you do.
Thanks for being an awesome Twinnie + bestie.
I love you more than anything else in the world,
other than God, parents, and siblings,
yeah, the days when we held hands and skipped around the school,
Awww, good times :')
I miss you love ♥

Jevashenee,

Jeva, you don't know how quiet our class is right now.
I love how loud and talkative you are no matter how many times I told you to shut up.
I'm going to kill you for posing in the pictures we took on your last day :p
Seriously, I miss you,
trust me,
when I think of me walking alone to put my bag at the cupboard all by myself,
gosh, it reminds me that I miss you alot.
Thanks for cracking up jokes during the awkward situations we've been through together.
I heart you (:

Ghazali Hamzah,
Zali, you've never failed to make me smile whenever I see you.
I don't know why, but seeing you everyday,
it makes me happy even though we are both not in the same class anymore.
I'm sorry I haven't been talking to you much,
because we both have been too busy,
it's the first month, of course we are,
but I didn't expect you to be one of the ones leaving me,
yours was really unexpected,
it hurt me so much, so much of pain, so much of tears,
Zali, I stayed because of you, and I'm not expecting you to blame yourself,
I just want you to know how much I love you.
You are the "favorite person" I was always referring to.
All the best love, you know you can always come to me when you need a friend.

this are my twinnies and besties,
and they are the reason why I've been so joyful and positive about school.

Take care love, you're always in my heart.

xxx

smile, you're beautiful

Happy Chinese New Year love!

Hope you had fun (:

For those who don't celebrate it,

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!

Gonna update soon!
Hugs!

x

redemption has stories to tell

if you were given a choice to pick one between your passion and your love,
what would be your answer?
which one would you choose?

Being 16 isn't easy.
You are suppose to make choices, and to bear the consequences yourself.
No one is there to teach you, not even your own seniors.
I don't have an elder sibling to guide me,
I'm not as lucky as the others.

How I wish I had an elder sister or brother.


This week was good.
I managed to spend some quality time with the lovelies.
Staying back for our co-curriculum activities on Thursday afternoon,

and everyone from 3B1 came and played before our CCA started,
everyone was hitting the balls with the raquets,
Puteri and I were just being on-lookers,
their cheerleaders,
and having a great time talking to each other.

I thought it would be tough since I got into volleyball.
I didn't have a choice, badminton club was full.
and everyone I knew was in badminton club.

So yeah.
But oh gosh,
I had so much fun!
With the lovely Syuhada and Izzaty,
awesome Divina and crazy Jeva,
and I met new girl named Aiza.

Of course I wished I was with Puteri, Zali, Adib, Juls, and all.
BUT THIS WAS SO MUCH FUN.
Actually, I did pray before I went to Puan Suhaila.
I told God, 'Please give me something I'll love, something I'll be capable of, even if I'm not good in it, I'll still learn, because it's Your will.'

And I got volleyball.
at first,
I was stunned.
I DIDN'T HAVE A SINGLE CLUE ABOUT VOLLEYBALL.
Let alone playing it in front of my juniors and seniors.
It'll be darn embarrassing.

BUT GOSH,
God is good, all the time.
I HAD SO MUCH FUN!
I just can't put it in words.
Trust me,
I laughed so hard with Izzaty and Syuhada.
Divina and Jeva were complaining non-stop to Zaty about Yaseen.
HAHAHA.
Goodness me :')

Vice president; just what did I get myself into this time?

I love music, my passion is psychology, and I'm good at talking.
Musician, Psychiatrist, or Lawyer?

this is hard.

thank god I found the good in goodbyes

I've been telling myself I have to update, in fact, I really wanted to update.
So many things to tell; so many thoughts to share so many feelings to pour out;

But when I decided to pen it all down, somehow words just couldn't come out.
I guess it's God's will, because after when I thought about it again, yes, God showed me His real purpose of those incidents happening and they proved that He was and still is in control.
Thank God for simple and answered prayers ♥

Now where do I start?

Firstly, my world kindda crashed when I found out Zali wanted himself out of our class.
He opted for Technique Science, which was plainly ridiculous to me at first, because I thought I could finally spend the rest of my school life with my best friend. Puteri and Jeva were going to leave and it just didn't make sense that he also wanted to leave me alone in that class.

Then I realized, what Puteri said was right. It was our future, we have to choice for ourselves, not our others, not even best friends. And I know he wouldn't be happy staying back, learning Biology only to torture himself.

and yesterday in BM class, Puteri and I were sitting together and we started gossiping.

Oh good ol' times, how I've missed them :')
It's been days since we've both had a proper conversation thanks to our busy schedules.
but I'm grateful for her, I think I wouldn't survive all these without her,
it's weird because whenever I see her, it's like she's the sunshine among us or whuuut, she just gives me hope that today will be a better day and we can just smile it off if things don't turn out to be the way they were suppose to be.

Oh, and guess what? During our first Sivik class, we accidently brought our grammar books and thought it was our Sivik book.

'Great minds think alike,' says Puteri Syahirah, and by that, she was referring to herself and I ♥

This morning in school, as we've just finished performing our prefects' duties, we were going back to class lah. And then there was this bunch of Malay boys beside the stairs, and Jeva said,'EH, I heard they said babi otak!'

WE LAUGHED OUR ASSES OFF. That was darn hilarious.

I've learned a new term today : Babi otak.

and yesterday, Rupini was just, copying some stuff Puan Rabiah told her to on the whiteboard.

and then the board was so cram, she mistakenly wrote Asses for Assessments.
And I just couldn't stop laughing.

Epicly failed lah you Rupini.

Oh by the way, we did Aerobics today at the field.

and it was so fun but embarrassing.
Imagine your class' boys are just opposite playing futsal,
and you're dancing, and making a fool out of yourself,
but it was fun, just so fun.
Shaking those bodies, woot woot, you can't help but feeling you're in So You Think You Can Dance.

First day in school as a 16 year-old immature senior

Enjoying each and every minute with my friends who are going to Convent in just a few weeks' time;
Jumping up and down when I see juniors, especially Adib, Juls, Shaleni and many more;
Got to pick my seat with one of my favorite person, Zali;

Seeing those lovelies and le teachers after a looooooooooong holiday;
Called out for the pelajar cemerlang photoshoot, even though I'm not one of them;
Camwhoring in the class with the lovelies like no one else's business.





I just gotta love life (: